{"id":557,"date":"2022-01-21T12:47:54","date_gmt":"2022-01-21T12:47:54","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/heartburnwomen.com\/?p=557"},"modified":"2022-01-21T13:02:37","modified_gmt":"2022-01-21T13:02:37","slug":"eleanor","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/heartburnwomen.com\/?p=557","title":{"rendered":"Eleanor"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>[vc_row][vc_column][vc_single_image image=&#8221;558&#8243; img_size=&#8221;full&#8221; alignment=&#8221;center&#8221;][vc_column_text]<\/p>\n<div class=\"\">\n<div class=\"\">He told me to stop crying. Stop crying. Stop shouting. Stop pulling at your hair. Stop worrying her. She could crash the car.\u00a0That would only make the situation worse.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">She could crash the car.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<p>Then she would be further away.<\/p>\n<p>Her soul could split further &#8211; lost into a thousand pieces.<\/p>\n<p>I could barely find her<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<div class=\"\">\n<div class=\"\">Only at night.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I wasn\u2019t allowed to see her in the day.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Crying.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Quietly.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Downstairs.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Not loud enough for anyone to hear except me.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I would find her lying wrapped up on the floor in her dressing gown.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Immovable.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">My mother.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">My beautiful mother.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<p>My wonderful mother.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Fingers in her soft hair.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<div class=\"\">Tell her it\u2019s okay.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<p>Lie with her until morning.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Lie there until<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<div class=\"\">\n<p>I was taken away again.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>The school rush. Brush your teeth. Tie your hair. Brush your hair.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<div class=\"\">Take your fingers out your hair. Tie your shoes.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Brushed past the door.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<p>Nanny will be driving you today.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Reaching up for the handle for the classroom.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<div class=\"\">I can\u2019t breathe. I can\u2019t speak.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I can be well behaved.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Put your fingers in your hair.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">She will be okay.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">If I stop.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Crying.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Laughing.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<p>Talki-<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>(He smiles over his moustache.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<div class=\"\">His thick bristly. Grey. White.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">A wrinkly smile.)<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I am well behaved.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\n<div>\n<h4>Eleanor<\/h4>\n<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p>[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_column][\/vc_row]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[vc_row][vc_column][vc_single_image image=&#8221;558&#8243; img_size=&#8221;full&#8221; alignment=&#8221;center&#8221;][vc_column_text] He told me to stop crying. Stop crying. Stop shouting. Stop pulling at your hair. Stop worrying her. She could crash the car.\u00a0That would only make the situation worse. She could crash the car. 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